I finally got up earlier! After my workout I took advantage of the extra time to spend time with God. My fitness group is doing a 20 day faith based challenge and our scripture was Matthew 6:31-34. “31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” This was such a great reminder that God will take care of all our needs in this desperate time and in any situation. I just need to keep my focus on him! I am thankful for this promise!
Today the kids finished their work quickly and then proceeded to play “school”. I just do not understand how they can complain about doing real school and then be so excited to play school. LOL. They played for almost 2 hours! Addie is a great teacher I must say.
After they played we got out in the sunshine and took a walk. It felt so amazing! It seems like every day with sunshine is so healing to our family. I have to say I have never seen so many people in my neighborhood out walking, riding bikes and playing. It was so cool to see! I hope this becomes something families do more often after this is all over.
At one moment during the day I was having a conversation via text with my cousin, she is really my frousin! 🙂 We were talking about what we missed the most about our “normal” life. I began to mourn the loss of my day to day activities and routines. It was a frustrating feeling to be missing them. I think I like the structure and comfort of my “normal” life, even though there are many things I love about the way life is now. We both agreed that we didn’t feel like we took these things for granted but just appreciate them more now that we had to put them on hold.
Parker also had a brief moment today when he realized that we would not be going to a restaurant for a long while. He cried and said he would miss that. Also on our walk he asked once again to go to the park and I had to explain again why we wouldn’t be doing that for some time either. When we walked past the park it was even harder for him seeing it completely fenced off making it impossible to play on it. It is a sad thing to try to explain to the kids.
Final thoughts and challenge- One thing that I have noticed I am able to do and am practicing doing is stopping when one of my kids is talking to me. Kneeling down and looking in their eyes to see what they have to say. Same with my mother or sister in law and Aaron, just stopping to take the time and giving importance to what they are telling me. It has been a really cool experience.
Last night Alaina was struggling to fall asleep and called me to her. When I got there she said I want to tell you something mommy. Normally I am in such a hurry to get her and myself to bed for the next day that I would be impatient with her and ask if we could talk later. However this time I decided to relax and listen. She proceeded to tell me about these amazing strategies about how she plans to deal with her fears (remember she is a very anxious child). For a 9 year old they were brilliant ideas, I was so blessed by her thoughts. I tucked her back in and went downstairs and did a quick live workout with Kathy.
Toward the end she came down again and told me she was afraid. This was the start of a 2 hour session of us talking about fear and God and praying and reading scripture.
I realize I would have totally missed out on this divine appointment with her had it been 2 weeks ago. I would have quickly and most likely, with a bit of annoyance, placed her in bed, prayed with her quickly and told her to count until she fell asleep. Because I took the time to slow down and pay attention to what she needed from me, I had this experience that neither one of us will ever forget. Totally worth getting to bed 2 and half hours late!
My question to you is, have you thought of just stopping when your child tugs at your shirt or says your name? What about your spouse? When was the last time you stopped and looked at them when they were talking to you? Perhaps not everyone struggles with this the way I do but it is something I want to be super intentional about. 🙂